Friday, October 27, 2023

pregnancy

he's 23 and wants a baby

says he has trauma like mine

that he gets flashbacks going down on women too soon

i told him if he ever has flashbacks i'll give him all the time

he needs

to get out (and no, i don't want this, i don't want him 

i want to move to poland but you're too scared of me

for me to try)

because both of the men i love

yelled at me and said i had to be myself NOW NOW NOW NOW NOW NOW

and made it so much worse and turned and walked away saying

my flashbacks meant i wasn't good enough

and left me bleeding

oh, a baby would keep me from anything 

everything

keep you safe from me

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